It has only been like what 3 weeks close to a month yet things felt loke forever. Too much drama happening, too much thoughts and emotions. I cant fathom myself too sometimes.
Rule #1 never read your partner’s messages. It can really hurt knowing the truth and whats hes been hiding from you.
My guess is, its not going to get pass 2013.
why do i have to fuck things up again? i know it isnt entirely my fault but..
The itchy fingers went to read his messages again. Guess what I read? Sighhh.
I thought at least I would only start regretting much later. Im already regretting it now. But why am I still here?
Many friends may not approve of my recent life decision. some say i’m looking for trouble, some say i’ll end up getting myself hurt. but what is living without taking a little risk? never try, never know. So I’ll just enjoy it when it last.
Sometimes I don’t understand my parents. i’m 25 and turning 30 in 5 years time. yes, i’m the youngest in the family and they feel like they have to protect me. but i’m already an adult and i can take care of myself. they kept bugging me to go dating, to bring someone home. and when i did they nag at me, telling me things like “dont do wrong things”. I know they care about me but i think i’m old enough to differentiate between right and wrong. why dont i see them nagging at my older sisters when they are doing the same things at my age? sighhh.
Time past too fast this month. Or maybe too much has been happening in oct.
Who am I kidding right? Thinking that I can change you only to find out how much lies youve been telling me and the girls youve beem screwing.